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Diabetes Blog Week: What Brings Me Down

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I’m participating in Diabetes Blog Week this week.I’m hoping these prompts will re-inspire my writing and encourage lots of blood sugar checks 🙂

May is Mental Health Month so now seems like a great time to explore the emotional side of living with, or caring for someone with, diabetes. What things can make dealing with diabetes an emotional issue for you and / or your loved one, and how do you cope? (Thanks go out to Scott of Strangely Diabetic for coordinating this topic.)

This is a hard topic to cover in a succinct or eloquent manner. I’m anticipating the fact that I’m about to let myself explore the many tough (emotional) aspects of diabetes — and I’m okay with that.. because that’s life and because I’ll balance it out tomorrow with positive. Work, appointments and my new addition of SCHOOL (more on that another day) called for this morning to begin at 4am. It’s a list kind of day.

Emotional Issues
-Judgment by those who don’t know better (or even those who do..).
-Guilt due to high blood sugar. Or low blood sugar. Or forgetting to put a new bottle of strips in your purse. Or change your pump set, or refill your glucose, or call in a script. You catch my drift.
-Not feeling 100% — fighting with yourself to push through they day and not let diabetes hold you back from doing something.
-Wondering why your sugar is high or low. Troubleshooting.
-The financial impact of diabetes.
-The impact that ALWAYS PLANNING has on your well being. I never stop thinking.
-Fear of the future and what complications it may (or may not!) hold. When is the future?
-Fighting with food. Being pissed that I *shouldn’t* eat that burger because my blood sugar is over 200 mg/dl. {“But I don’t like to let diabetes hold me back from doing things! But I also don’t like to feel like shit, and I want to prevent complications” (see, mind always racing).}
-The simple fact that this impacts my husband.
-The incurable-ness of this disease.
-Seizures in the middle of the night. The indescribable feeling of mortality that envelopes you when you finally realize what just happened and why you’re lying in a pool of apple juice and sweat. (I honestly don’t know if I’ve ever experienced a worse feeling than this.)

How I Cope?
-Exercise that I love. Yoga, especially.
-Eating well — and being excited about the things I eat that I know are good for me.
-A fabulous support system made up of my friends, my family, and my superhero husband.
-Escaping reality for a bit with a good book.
-Writing this blog. Reading your blog.
-Continuously learning.
-Reminding myself that I can do this. So can you.
-Calling my sister (also T1) for a diabetes bitchfest.

Are there other things that make this disease emotional? Hell yes. Do I cope in more ways than what I listed? Absolutely (and some of the ways may not be healthy, like pretending I don’t have diabetes for an hour, or longer).

The most important thing to remember? I’ve come this far, and I’ve got all of you behind me. I’m not just a diabetic, but I wouldn’t be the person I am today without diabetes (for instance, maybe I wouldn’t be such a planner!).

bad decisions.

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It feels like every time I take an unintended hiatus from this blog, I come back eventually trying to get out of a burnout or bad spell. It is what it is, I guess – and I’ll be the first to admit that the Diabetes Online Community/other people’s blogs/this blog is how I pull myself out of a rut (no matter how deep) and set myself back on track.

I’ve been making bad decisions lately. Some of them very unconscious decisions (mistakes?). Some of them, like last night, thought out. I’m not going to hash out every lingering high, forgotten meter, or untested blood sugar I’ve had. We all have them. It’s life. Diabetes just hasn’t been on the forefront for me recently, and I’m finding it easy to talk myself out of doing the right thing.

I had high blood sugars yesterday — with a hunch they were due to bad insulin after a kayaking trip on Saturday (took me way too long to figure this out. I’m not being proactive enough). I felt like crap all day. When I found myself with a blood sugar of 300 right before dinner, I knew I should have either 1. waited, or 2. eaten a low carb meal. But, I was feeling (oddly) okay despite the morning’s high sugars, and I was feeling rather defeated my diabetes (and was with very special people at a very special place). I ignored what  I knew I should do, took a shit-ton (true measurement) of insulin figuring it would be more than enough, upped my basal, and ate a burger.

Burger was damn good, but not worth it.

I was hovering around 400 mg/dl all night. I changed my pump set (whoa! proactive!), but still spent almost 9 hours at extremely high levels. I’m absolutely exhausted today. My muscles ache and my head is throbbing. It’s what I get for eating something that I know makes me high when I’m already high.

Food seems to be the bane of my existence recently — my relationship with it is very frustrating.

My point? I don’t know. I need to reconnect. I need to re-establish my smart thinking. I need to get myself in order. I’m excited to have just signed up for the 5th Annual Diabetes Blog Week to get myself back into the swing of things. I appreciate all of you who resist the urge to judge me. I’m already beating myself up enough as it is. Welcome to the wonderful world of diabetes.

i think i can. i know i can.

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I’m not really doing National Health Blog Post Month (30 posts in 30 days) this year, but I have been admiring some of the prompts, so I’d like to participate when I can.

Day 2 prompt (see.. I can’t even get to the prompts on the right day!) was this:

Write 3 lines that start with “I think I can…”

Then write 3 lines that start with “I know I can…”

I think I can always choose happiness.
I think I can 
do anything I put my mind to (with diabetes).
I think I can 
look at each blood sugar as a chance to maintain or improve.

I know I can always choose happiness.
I know I can
do anything I put my mind to (even with diabetes).
I know I can
look at each blood sugar as a chance to maintain or improve.

I just didn’t feel right about doing separate “I think I cans” (see “I know I can” #2).

ALSO, Diabetes Month Photo A Day. I’m behind.
Day 2 (check). Beautiful morning bike ride with the loves of my life? Check.

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Day 3 (snack). Cheating a bit and enjoying a deeee-licious buffalo chicken dip snack with friends and football. I always forget to take pictures before snack/meal is halfway gone.

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frittata.

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Frittata. Such a funny word. I’ve been seeing recipes for frittatas all over the place, so I finally decided to try it (read: was forced to try it because I had nothing else that resembled dinner in the fridge last week). Turned out it was dee-lish-ous, and probably will be a regular fridge cleaner-upper.

What I used (you can use ANYTHING that you have around, though!):
10 eggs
1 potato
goat cheese (whole bunch)
1 red pepper
some spicy spices. probably crushed red pepper.
some onion
BACON (because everything needs bacon)

Dice up the potato, put in skillet with a little olive oil (make sure you coat your pan pretty well — you’ll cook your eggs in this pan later). Cook up the bacon. Chop the red pepper and onion and throw that in with the potato. Tear up the bacon into small pieces and put it in the skillet with everything else.

Crack all of the eggs in a bowl and whisk. Then, pour them in the skillet over the potato/pepper/bacon/onion mixture. I think I had my heat turned down too low at this point, so you’ll just have to experiment. Don’t scramble — just let the eggs cook. This is when I added some goat cheese and spices on top. Once the eggs are pretty firm but not too firm (very scientific) – stick it in the oven on broil for 3 or so minutes. It browns the top just a bit, and voila! Before serving, at some more goat cheese. Just cause.

I didn’t take pictures during the cooking process because I didn’t expect for it to be so yummy. It was a pretty low carb meal, though – I only had to bolus for a portion of a potato. End result:

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vacation.

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Husband and I just got back from vacation.  Normally while I’m letting my mind and body relax on a nice trip (normally.. like I take vacations all the time..) I don’t worry quite as much about my blood sugars. We’re usually heavier on carbs, drinking beer, feasting on desserts – so I tend to loosen up on my range a bit. Everyone needs a little break, come on.

I’ve noticed that recently I feel a lot more lethargic than I used to when I’m in the high 170-200 range, and I didn’t want to bring that feeling on vacation. So I decided to do a little planning. I, like a lot of you probably do, have certain foods that I purchase regularly because I know what they do to my blood sugars. I’m comfortable eating them, I know what to bolus for them, and it just works. So before we left town I made a trip to the grocery store to get foods for breakfast, lunch and snack to help tame my sugars.

The results? Well, for one, I felt like a food hoarder. I had so much food in my room, my family probably wondered when I developed a food addiction (sorry family, now you know why). For two, (for two?) my main purpose in hoarding food felt successful. My blood sugars were pretty damn cooperative. That’s not to say that I didn’t let myself do what I wanted. We had lasagna, burritos, and I ate dessert every night it was offered. I swag bolused for every one of these aforementioned foods and got pretty decent numbers out of it. Nothing was perfect, by any means, but I felt in control of my diabetes, and that made vacation so much sweeter.

Now that I’ve said this, my sugars are probably going to run rampant. What do you do to help tame the ‘beetus on vacation?

Also – here are the only three pictures I took (need to get better at this before we have kids):

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